Commentary with The Fox: Drums

Friday, July 10, 2020

I Wanna Start Bangin...

I have noticed that since my kids have grown up and my wife passed... I have looking in been looking at myself in the mirror more And more lately and thinking... WHO THE F**K IS THAT ? I remember I was so young, so fearless, so strong, so creative and so dam visioned... I loved doing creative things and fun things like play Drums, Pool and Video Editing...

Well... For quite a long time now I have secretly been wanting to get back into playing drums. I miss the aggression, the creativity and the passion all rolled in one. Now of course I have no where to put a drum set. And that angry fat bastard COVID-19 has everything completely shut down. So I don’t even have a place to go and feed the hungry Beast in me that is roaring to break out. It’s well known about me that I am a hard core music lover, but you may not know that I really want to make music !

I have become a classic “DAD”... I really want to get back to being... : “ME” ! My eyes are so much more open now. Maybe age and hard lessons of life are making me wiser ? Maybe I have "Finally" grown up to become the person that I was always meant to be ? Who knows ? Either way, it’s about time I get back to being “ME”... Start enjoying MY life and start doing the things that I love doing again... I may have been born in the wrong body and forced to “Not be myself”, but that doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy doing the things that make me who I am...

I have had many loves and even more disappointments. Through it ALL, the 1 person that I never really paid any attention to was... ME ! ME, DAM IT !!!! I was someones SON. I was someones Brother. I was someones Husband, Father, Nephew, BLAH BLAH BLAH.

NOW... WHO THE FUCK AM I ? That is the 1 main question that I have yet to still answer, and I am past the BIG 4-0. I have lived for everyone else, but ME. I have lived for this one and I lived for that one. I pleased my family and I humored my "so-called" friends. Does anyone really care for "ME" or want to know who I really am inside or what makes “ME” happy ? It’s time I start living for ME !

FOX !