Never in my wildest dreams... Never EVER : Could I EVER imagine I'd be Widowed. After all these years, I can "FINALLY" talk about it. And yes, it's taken me THIS LONG (Since February 19th, 2018)
It happened to my mother, when my father died. It happened to my sister, when her husband died. Then... IT HAPPENED TO ME ! 27 years, 4 kids (2 are twins) and a whole lot of memories and scars. It's way too much for my blog to handle ! However... I am widowed. That EVIL BASTARD BREAST CANCER took my "Chipmunk" away from me. It doesn't matter what part of the body it affects, CANCER IS CANCER. My sister had stomach cancer. My father had pancreatic cancer and a heart attack. My uncle (Dad's brother) had cancer.
At the time of this entry, it's Easter Sunday 2025 at 2:00 PM and I'm widowed, my kids are grown and life is just not what I thought it would be at this point and time in my life. The sad part is... I HAD ABSOLUTELY "NO CONTROL" over ANYTHING ! All I wanted was a nice quiet family life, a few laughs and maybe, just maybe, grow old with the person who gets on my dam nerves while I smack her butt and we eat tons of junk food together. Was that too dam much to ask ? Was it ?
My faith is SUPER STRONG in Jesus Christ. Make no mistake about it. Also, Thanks to the lost Gnostic Gospels that the Roman Catholic Church did NOT want us to know about, I now understand a lot of things that I was never supposed to know about, which keeps me strong. I am #Widowed. Cancer claimed my #Wife (27 years). Cancer claimed my #Father, my uncle and my sister. The only way I can put how I feel is...
I have been alone for so many years now, since my wife died on February 19th, 2018. I have to somehow go on living, while everyone around me, who were the closest people to me, are now ALL GONE !!!! What do I do now...? I feel so freakin lost, and I definitely don't have a handle on anything. It's taken me 7 long years, just to be able to come to grips with the fact that I am widowed. 7 years of my life that I can never get back. I also have absolutely no idea where they all went...? Now I can't even remember who I once was, much less whoever the hell I am now ? Cancer didn't just take all my loved ones away, it's completely WRECKED me and my entire life. What's left of it anyway. like I said before :
Love Always in Your Life,
Follow Jesus Christ, you will NEVER GO WRONG.