What if you looked up and saw a speeding truck heading right at the people around you... What would you do ? You start SCREAMING to everyone to get out of the way. They are not listening to you. They hear you, but are purposely ignoring you. You look up at the speeding truck again... You notice that it's moving much faster and more aggressive. You are now screaming to the top of your lungs, telling everyone to GET OUT OF THE WAY !!!! They are still not listening to you. You panic... Your stomach is now turning in knots. You then start grabbing people, to get them out of the way. You try your best to protect people, even when they don't realize that they need to be protected.
They pull away from you, and look at you like YOU are the crazy one. The truck is getting closer, faster, and moving a lot more aggressively. The truck is NOT STOPPING. It now starts blowing it's horn... People are STILL IGNORING the clear and obvious imminent danger that's heading right for them... You make 1 last attempt to get everyone out of harms way and do your best to protect those around you. They still ignore you and look at you with awkward irritation. The truck is seconds from hitting everyone in it's path. It's NOT STOPPING... THEN SUDDENLY... STOP THERE... !
This is "EXACTLY" how I feel and have always felt, each and everyday of my lifetime. Even more so for the past 10+ years of my life. Clearly I see and feel things that others don't... and they don't even care about it... UNTIL IT's TOO LATE ! I don't want to be in the "I told you so" position, but... I keep finding myself in that very spot, over and over again. I don't want to be right or feel the need to say : I told you so, about anything ! That's not something I am interested in. However... When I clearly see a threat or a coming danger, I will definitely do what I can to warn and help others around me. Weather they listen to me or not is an entirely different story...
I don't like to see people hurt, in trouble or in danger. I have a heart and it feels for others. Maybe it's my flaw, ok... But just know that I DO have a heart and naturally good intentions with it. It actually hurts me inside, to know that I can or could have helped those around me, but they just don't want to listen to me. It's just like telling a child : The stove is HOT, don't touch it ! And you know they are not going to listen to you and have to learn the hard way... WHY DON'T PEOPLE WANT TO LISTEN ?
"I told you so", is not my goal, it's the burden I bare inside, because those around me refuse to allow me to help and it really hurts me ! This is EXACTLY why most of my life I have embraced peace, happiness and solitude in being a loner. The only person I ever need to worry about is : ME ! By keeping no one close to me or connected to me, I save myself the burden of caring for those I can not help. I feel like the Guardian Angel of those around me. When I am prevented from caring for people, it really hurts me more than I can put into words...
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